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[28 Feb 2004|09:51am]

[ mood | depressed ]

My favorite rock star’s making it big and where did I get myself in the music biz? Behind a desk playing her songs over the radio. Slightly depressing, not that I would ever admit to that.
But I have Willow here to keep my mind distracted from all of that.
I really love her.

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[24 Dec 2003|10:38am]

[ mood | awake ]

Sweet Seduction is playing in Big Bear tonight, another sold out concert but I got tickets through my job at the radio station, my own booth as well. The stations hosting a couple drawings for a few free prizes.
I walked around the concert grounds were there were venders selling her CD’s, signed photos and tee shirts. Nothing says you’re famous like product.
It was still early; opening acts for opening acts were playing on the side stage and the people walked around. I got in back stage through my all access pass that I got through the station.
I walked through the back stage halls, a lot of people were back there as well, fans, other bands, security, I managed to blend in.
Found her in her room wither door open.
I leaned against the doorframe. “Well look whose a rock star.”

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[07 Dec 2003|01:52pm]

Hi everyone! I know I haven't posted in an ubder long time! But I've just gotten back into the whole roleplayibg thing. Alas, I'm moving away from Buffy, because my boyfriend started a Lion Kning RPG. It's got an amazing concept! It's gonna be so awesome, and I know all you guys are so uber good at roleplaying you'd just love to join. (please!) So pleas guys, atleats check it out! [Unknown LJ tag] I'd may much appreciate it! Thanks oodles! Love ya! *kisses* *kudos* Chels<3
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waking [07 Oct 2003|09:50pm]

In his arms, I wake to his lovely face nestled to mine. I am have been so truely happy.... so in love.
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[24 Sep 2003|08:05pm]

A picnic on the beach, wave crashing upon wave as it lapped the shoreline.
The fire blazed as it danced in the pit of sand that was only but 5 feet away from where Willow and I sat on the sand.
I played her songs on the my acoustic guitar that I had brought along with me, songs I’ve written about her or ones that make me think of her. Songs of love.
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Waiting for Oz [20 Sep 2003|01:56am]

[ mood | restless ]

Things have been really great between Oz and I. I do miss him terribly when he has to go in the woods for wolfing out or magick therapy. I did hear about Ariel's good fortune in LA and I am happy for her.

Everything else in my life seems to be going alright, schoolwork, tutoring. But I am getting so captivated in my magick studies. Oz has been helping me and teaching me what he knows which is terrific. I have been researching stronger and wilder magick. Perhaps I can start expanding my practice to bigger rituals. Right now, I look to the clock and count the seconds till I get to see him. I know he wants to wait for 'you know' but funny thing is the harder it is for me to wait. *laughs*

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[12 Sep 2003|11:20pm]

I think Ariel forgot how to knock because she just ran into my house so filled with excitement and a smile on her face that only meant something good. She was about to explode if she didn't get the good word out. "Spill it!"
She squealed with excitement and wrapped up tight against me and showered me with kisses. I had to push her back a little so she could remember that she had to tell me about the exciting news.
“We got a record deal!"
I’m dating a rock star!
But there was a down side to everything that I looked at with her, she had to be back in LA, living there.
”I want to come with, be with you each step of the way.” I think I was really in love with this girl and I wasn’t letting her get away to a record-breaking contract. Dropping out of school, out of the band, none of that really seemed to matter in comparison to this.
"Devon I cant ask you to just drop your band, your the lead singer… only singer." –not true, Oz could sing-
But "Dingoes isn't going any where further then Sunnydale, but you, your going places and I wanna come with."
“Your sure about this? Packing up and moving to LA? All for lil ol me"
"I'm sure."
I kissed her and this all lead into sexual celebration.
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[11 Sep 2003|06:11am]

[ mood | anxious ]

The audience was enjoying the music but I don’t know what went through my
mind but I just wanted to push it a little bit further.
The siren’s note projected through the microphone and amplifiers
subliminally heard by the crowd and after that not one guy was looking
anywhere but towards the stage. I absorbed all the attention and the smile
on my face widened as I continued to sing. After the last song they begged
for more and we gave into their wishes and played till the club closed.
We cased the equipment and carried them to the cars. On our last trip out
when all we had in hand was either cords or drumsticks a lady stopped us at
the back door.
She was dressed in a dark professional looking suit, “You guys were good.
And I take it because of the location of where your playing that you
haven’t yet signed onto a contract with any major companies yet. How would
you guys like to be represented by Virgin Records?”
Tony lifted my jaw when it fell, “What records?”
“Here’s my card.” She handed each of us the virgin’s card with what
I assume to be her name and number typed at the bottom. “Call me tomorrow
afternoon, I’ll be in LA. We’ll disuses where you’re going.”
All of us were to in shock that we didn’t get any other words in before
she left, just stood at the cards our eyes wide. Then the shocked expression
turned into a grin, and there was jumping and hugging, a couple of happy
screams as well. As soon as we got home I got into my car and rushed over to see Devon to tell him the news.

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[11 Sep 2003|05:53am]

Willow and I have been living in love. Words of affection exchanged, and every moment indulged in sweet kisses. We’ve never gone much further then that though. Not that I don’t love her, but I want to wait.
She’s been playing with magic’s, not exactly behind her friends back, just that she hasn’t told her best friend what’s been going on. Wouldn’t want the slayer thinking she conjuring black magic with the wolfie when it’s just simple sorcery and only me.
It’s been fun though; we’ve gotten past the floating pencil and into the fun stuff. Some of the things I already knew and some of them were new to me.
It’s been fun, not like the time consuming magic I have to do each week.
I hate that, for a day or two each week I have to be away from her, to go into the woods practicing control. With Ariel I never remembered having to take time off to do that.
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I'm baaaaaaaack! [06 Sep 2003|01:52am]

I'm back everyone! I look forward to starting things up again with all. I've missed everyone lots.
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[03 Sep 2003|09:31am]

Hey shayness! *kisses* the rest of the guys are in here..well Arie and Kevin are, we can't find Nick, he might be in class. We were looking over the journals, since my internet seems to be the only one that works. Let me know if we should do anything okies? They can always type it on a floppy and have me post it. Our internet's being all wonky. Aim wont even work! How weird is that? :) But I'm here to offer my services darling. *kiss kiss* Oof, Arie left to go to art, she remembered she was late.

Lol Kevin says it's his new dell, and that he's married to me now, only he didn't ask me, so I'm going ot snub him and pretend I love someone else! *grins* well Shayness, just let me know ok precious?
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[29 Aug 2003|04:07pm]

[ mood | bored ]

I lead the dullest life ever.
If I were the slayer I'd be doing much cooler things than shagging a vamp.
I hate being ordinary.

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To the Magic Shoppe... [29 Aug 2003|04:34pm]

[ mood | curious ]

Oz -"Sure."
I had an order I should check on anyways. Shantou -guy that tought me how to conrol the wolf- shipped me things I would need that I could only get on the black market.

We both got up from the table and put our empty coffee mugs to the coffeebar. As we walked out of Espesso Pump, Oz carried my books and with his other hand held mine. We strolled slowly down the boulvard as we turned to where my neighborhood was. There were the stereotypically fine manicured lawns and the blue shuttered houses. Some kids were playing in the street with a nerf football and almost hit Oz's head. He gracefully caught it with one hand and through it to them. Reached my house, said hello to my parents and placed my books upstair but remembering to right down the ingrediants for the spell I wanted to learn.

Oz and I headed to the Magic shoppe as he lead the way. It was about in the corner of main street and looked like a typical New Age shoppe, but Oz assured me the important items were in the back. The shoppe bell rings as he holds the door and we enter...

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[27 Aug 2003|04:27am]

[ mood | contemplative ]

I'm still waiting for Buffy to bring Spike around to meet me. Actually, even if she did invite him to the flat, one can always dis-invite him later, so that really isn't the obstacle it appears. I know I'm only putting off the inevitable by not asking about it.

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[25 Aug 2003|04:46pm]

[ mood | nerdy ]

I went to school happier than I have been in a while. It was nice to start the day with Oz's kisses. I really appreciated that he came over to apologize and that we could seriously talked. Even though we have huge differences, in my heart of hearts, I will love him no matter what happens. I raced to school and was only like ten minutes late. The teachers let me slide since I usual am the perfect student. I talked to Isis a little bit in English class and said hi to Riley in the tutor lounge. I haven't seen them around but they have been very busy with each other. I saw Ariel go into the woman's room, I'd like to avoid her for a while. To avoid any confrontation as possible.

During lunch, I happen to bump into Buffy. It was really nice to see her, however it seemed she had a lot on her mind. We had light chat about classes and up-coming tests. I told her I was going to be the computer lab assistant next quarter. I wanted to spill everything what has happened to me. If anyone would understand, she would. We agreed to meet up after school at the Espresso Pump for some catching up.

My advanced Trig class was canceled so I wandered over to the library. I found a section of books in the farthest part of the library that were particularly intriguing. There were books of magicks that seem to stem from thousands of years. They concentrated from elemental to astro-physical. There was texts about dimensional powers to earthly wiccan forces to source within. The librarian knows I am good for them so I checked out a few by myself. It could be like a science project because I scanned the techniques and they were similar to chemistry, however the ingredients are a little harder to find. Perhaps I'll start at the beginning like a floating pencil.

After school, I stopped over to Oz's locker and gave him his daily 3 o'clock kiss and headed out to the Espesso Pump.

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[22 Aug 2003|11:16pm]

[ mood | crazy ]

“You kept me up all night, whining and giving those puppy eyes, I just laid there in my demon and you finally fell asleep on my stomach, forgot how cute the werewolf is"
I’m a cute werewolf, not what Willow’s going to think.
"Oz don’t do that to yourself. If she doesn’t except the wolf then she isn’t worth it, she should love you for who and what you are"
Those words ran though my mind as I knocked on Willow’s bed room door after her mother let me in the house.

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[20 Aug 2003|11:48pm]

[ mood | irritated ]

Buffy's going out with another deadboy.
Pfft. Let's see how long this one lasts.

I heard him say something about not having a soul. I'm really confused. Is Buffy into "bad" boys now?

Wow, this whole entry has been about Buffy. Buffy is not that interesting so I think this entry should be stopped.

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[19 Aug 2003|09:51pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

Sweet Seduction’s got a few gig’s this week, Tuesday and Thursday at the Bronze and then Saturday we have one back in LA. I’m going to ask Oz to come and join us for the LA one, he should see his folks and I know mine would love to see him also.
The guys and I all went clubbing last night, had a blast but I called in early and decided to take a walk, hoping to maybe find Oz, it being a full moon and all. And I knew his wolf would like to see me again but I didn’t know where he goes for that so I gave up and walked in the park, thinking over song lyrics for a new song I was writing. The park here is pretty empty at night, guess due to he vamps being out at night and all.
As I was walking out of no where the wolf jumped from the shadows pouncing me sending us both to the ground and began licking me and wagging his tail then nuzzled my face. I smiled and pet him “Hello my love”. the wolf is like a big puppy around me. He suddenly stood over me with a defensive stance and growled, I looked back to see Willow.
“He tried to k-kill me”
“He was only playing.” I pet him and kissed his nose.
“Fetch with a stick is playing, he attacked me. He yours?”
I had to laugh, “Oz? Used to be but now he’s a free man.” regretfully.
I was wearing a halter top that tied around my neck and lower back leaving my shoulder blade bare, and she saw the tattoo. But before now I had hidden it from her for Oz’s sake. Only this time was different, didn’t expect to see Willow tonight.
She started getting defensive about him, truthfully she was pissing me off, kept reminding me he wasn’t mine anymore, like it wasn’t already hard enough she had to rub it in. I know that when Oz finds out he will come after me, think I enticed the conversation, and I didn’t, she brought it up.
She’s making me feel like this bad person. I have done pretty good considering, if it was up to me I’d be right back in his arms, I could easily try and take him back but I haven’t, I know they are dating. So I haven’t tried anything.
She was upset that the wolf showed so much love to me, said it showed how Oz truly feels and she’s right. Deep down Oz still loves me, but he loves Willow and right now that matters.
The wolf came over and nosed me, I know what he wanted… my demon. I looked around and the park was empty so I pulled my demon out for him.
Willow got tired of it and left.
Short while after I took the wolf home with me, more like he followed me, I got him inside, luckily the guys were still out so I just brought him into my room and closed the door.
I pulled off my pants and shirt and pulled on a over sized shirt before crawling into bed, the wolf watched me the entire time, when I realized I pegged him with a pillow.
He also tried to hump my leg. All in all it was a long night but I laid there in my demon and he laid his head on my stomach finally falling asleep

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[19 Aug 2003|05:15am]

[ mood | confused ]

Like old timesCollapse )
I went back to the forest, kinda to think this all through. Not just the how am I going to tell Willow I’m a wolf situation but Ariel and I.
I got side tracked when I saw a shooting star, 3 of them in a minute.
So at 3 am I came into Ariel’s room through her window and shook her lightly waking her up.
“I wanna show you something.”
So I took her back to the forest and we sat up on a hill.
“You told me you’ve never seen one before.”
“I haven’t and it is but I’m also sitting here half asleep in my boxers and tank top…but thank you.”
“You look great.”
We stayed there for the rest of the night, she used my jacket as her pillow and I used her stomach.

I told Willow I was a werewolf, bad timing because it was under the full moon and I felt myself changing.
"W..ww...www..wolf?! With the fur and the teeth , all grrrr . But you are good one right.. a werewolf? You wouldn't hurt anything? I mean I have seen vampires and a few odd things, but you are good right?"
As Oz I wouldn’t hurt her but I wish I could promise her that it would be the same under the full moon.

The next night, the second moon, I went to the woods alone.
I completely changed. No part of what I changed into was me, that’s why I stayed so far out and away from everything.
I don’t know what happened but I woke up to the sun rising through the window of Ariel’s bed room.

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next night [17 Aug 2003|12:56am]

[ mood | uncomfortable ]

Last night ended so oddly. I could see the wolf coming out of Oz but all of suddenly he made a quick excuse to leave. I watched him go and walked home alone. The next day, I was still confused about what I learned about him and wanted to talk to him. I couldn't find him at all. That evening I went to the forest because I knew that sometimes he went there.

As I approached there, I saw a large furry form that howled in the shadows. It was a large grey wolf. Was it Oz, I wondered. All sudden the wolf sprinted toward me with a predatory look in his eye. I sheik and ran the other direction. This couldn't be Oz, he wouldn't try to eat me.. would he? The wolf cut my path toward the city park. With all the adrenaline I could muster, I scaled over the chain fence into the utility shed area. The large canine barreled through the locked gate and cornered me. I grabbed a rake for some defense but the large beast jumped and pinned me down.
The wolf finds ArielCollapse )

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